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Apr. 6th, 2005

04:38 pm - symptoms of yu

wow
i really forgot how it feels like to b DUMPED.
and omg... i just hate it with ALOT of passion.
i dont remember the last time i felt so... unwanted i guess.
like honestly. i tried to be the best gf i could be.
i guess dat wasnt enuff for dear christian
nothing was ever enuff for him.
*ugh* i know i might be a drama queen
but i just have soo much to say bout how i feel right now i just wanna say it ALL!
word of advice...
dont make the mistake i did.
go for the guy dat loves yu the most.
i wish hassan was on msn he could cheer me up.
i miss hassan =(
nd i miss hanging out at the complex in the summer.
i wish i never met christian.
i dont even feel like we went out
it just feels like a nightmare.
so pls sum1!
wake me up from dis nightmare!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: rejected

Current Music: try- nelly furtado

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Mar. 18th, 2005

10:07 pm - mmmhmm american air

last night i couldnt sleep wutsoever
i went to sleep at like 3 a.m.
nd woke up at 6 a.m.
and laid in my bed for like 2 hours
ola says its prob from all the exictement
dat i had on thursday at christians house haha
i went to buffalo today wid my mommy
nd i met my soulmate at timmys
he works at timmys in Fort Erie right beside the border
nd his name is... WALLY (for real)
nd hes one sexxielicious nerd
black roxy flip flops - $30
hand cream from bath & body dat smells like pears - $10
vintage earrings - $5
jake - a penny
a friend dat has practically the same feelings and emotions as u during random parts of the day. nd sum1 dat you would consider a sister. nd sum1 dat u hav known all ur life - priceless
theres sum things money cant buy but for the other things u have... sex
(dont ask... im kinda bored nd half dead from all the car driving)
p.s. i wanna get into christians pants

Current Mood: exhausted

Current Music: almost - bowling for soup

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Mar. 16th, 2005

08:59 pm - game over...

this morning was... tiring
i woke up at 11: 00 am
stayed in bed til like 12
then talked to trini on the phone for like... EVER
so it was a pretty boring morning
then after 4:00 pm
bogus (trini) came over
yay!!! took her long enuff!!!
nd then she INSISTED dat she tries dis new hairstyle of hers on me..
i felt like her doll..
nd we didnt have enuff bobby pins so she couldnt finish
put i hav a pic of it =)
it looked kinda nice..
(when u looked at the side of my head)
nd then betty came over =) yay
the three muskeeters back together again<3
then after me trini nd betty walked to Rogers Video
which is like... beside south common so it wasnt DAT far
nd so we decided to take SAW!!!
later.. we were hungry so we had mcchicken at mcdonalds
mmmmhmmmm yummmmy *drools*
then when we were waiting at the bus stop
some black gangstas were flirting wid bogus
nd of course... she just acted all innocent (my ass u r trini)
nd then they were like "trini do u giv brains?"
shes like... "no!"
nd i was like... "TRINI YAH U DID"
nd they all were like "OHHHH TRINI GAVE BRAINS"
haha dat was the only funny part..
the rest was kinda creepy.
... damn pervs.
so then we FINALLY got to my house.
nd betty had to go =(
so me nd trini watched SAW
haha we were like hugging eachother
and hiding under the blanket
its kinda scary but more gruesome than scary
but the movie relly got to me..
it was about a killer dat killed ppls hu took their life for granted
like in one of the parts..
the killer kidnapped a man dat did drugs. he put the man in a room. he injected him wid posion dat would kill him and the antidote was in a safe nd it had a lock on it. nd there were like numbers all over the room and one of those numbers were the combination for the lock. AND the killer put some kind of thing on the guy which is flammabe nd left him a candle in the room.. b/c the room was dark so he needed to use the candle to c all the numbers. nd he only had like 10 hours to fgure out the combination b4 the posion kills him.
if u ask me... i thought the killer was a genuis.
i mean.. not GOOD genuis but like psycho genuis.
ill never take life for granted EVER AGAIN!
nd im gonna appreciate all the little things in life.
like.. cheese.
its always been there for me when i was sad =(
it was nd ALWAYS WILL BE...
my comfort food <333
i LOVE u cheese!
GUESS WHAT Y'ALL?
JAKE GOT ACCEPTED TO YORK UNIVERSITY!!!
YAY!!!
now im gonna bake him lil graduation cupcakes =)
theyre gonna hav lil graduation hats =)
haha i love jake nd im soo proud of him
cus he worked soo hard all year nd grade 12 is DEFINITLY NOT easy
so jake...
congrats =)
the juice IS worth the squeeze =)
(from the girl next door)
i LOVE DAT MOVIE!
i miss christian =(
im home alone =(
nd im still scared from dat movie SAW
i wish christian was here... to protect me from all the psycho ppls =(
i RELLY RELLY like him.
nd i RELLY RELLY want it to work out btw us.
he makes me happy.. like a kinda happy when u know everything is RIGHT in ur life
haha well dats all i gotta say bout 2day
NEVER TAKE UR LIFE FOR GRANTED!
even if its shitty =(
theres always something to look forward to in the end =)
luv yahh all bitches <33333
p.s. evry1 go buy a copy of "Go Ask Alice"
friggin amazing book nd im only on page 42

Current Mood: cheerful

Current Music: fat lip- sum41

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Mar. 15th, 2005

08:39 pm - hmmm strawberry & creme frappaciuno *drools*

oh lordie
its ONLY 8:40 p.m.
and im exhausted... like... im crawling on the ground
but i cant go to sleep!
i wanna watch a movie. but my rents aint done with their movie =(
so im stuck on msn cause im too lasy to pick up the guitar or read "Go Ask Alice"
this morning...
trini called me at 10:00 am... hu the hell calls sum1 in the morning?
ESPECIALLY during march break..
TRINI!
damn yu... one day. im gonna unplug all the phones in my house!
well yah she calls me in the morning but i didnt pick up =(
the phone was too far i swear.
i was soo tired.
i guess its b/c i was talking to christian FOREVER!
nd he kept telling me ghost stories to freak me out.
and i just HAPPEN to be all alone in the basement..
=( i was scared cus i kept hearing noises...
nd im 110% sure it wasnt MY DOG!
so back to telling my story about today..
me trini nd anna went to toronto at like 2ish.
we were gonna take the subway there but the parking lot was closed
so we ended up driving through the streets of toronto
after an exhausting 2 HOUR drive in the car (dont ask y it too soo long)
i was... feeling sick
iunno. lately my throat has been feeling stuffed up.
sooo all day my head felt stuffed up.
at urban planet..
me anna nd trini tried on these track suits hahaha
it was soo jks cus they were butt ugly!
i looked like a friggin green grape in them cus i took the green ones.
hahaha but we had a good laugh =P
after we went outside for some fresh air (it wasnt fresh more like WEED air)
nd some gangsters asked us if we smoke weed
annas like "occaisonally" (wut a smartass)
so me nd trini ran nd gave some homeless ppls money $$$
instead wasting it on weed..
we felt soo bad for them..
like honestly... wut would u do if a homeless person asked u for just some change?
(i hope he doesnt spend it on weed... or else *trini gets a shotgun*)
so we then after we just happened to go outside again
cus anna wanted to go tanning but she couldnt cus her ass was BURNED!
hahaha srry anna... im exposing ur asss
then we happened to c the edge station
but since trini nd anna r GANGSTAS nd part of G-Unit
we went to flow instead
nd we got to be on air =)
AND they are gonna use us a commercial for them cus were kool dat way
hahaha it was funny =P
i feel so gangsta now
then after we bought starbucks frappcuinos!!!!!!!
it made me sick=(
damn u whip cream
so yummy but soo... soo... sickening to my tummy
today my mommy bought me a book =)
but its not an ordinary book..
its a book.. ABOUT
DRUGS!
nd jess callery said its relly good but sad =(
so yah
nd also..
i can play the WHOLE first part of fat lip by sum 41!!!
yay!!!
im acctually getting better
well i g2g
trinis calling me.
she missed me already..
AS IF
she prob wants money.
TAKE CARE U BITCHES =)
p.s.
I LOVE CHRISITAN ND HIS GHOST STORIES<3333333333333333

Current Mood: tired

Current Music: only u- ashanti

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Mar. 12th, 2005

01:27 pm - i <3 u like a fat kid loves brocoli

last night was soo much fun =)
first i went to christians house
omg! his room is the koolest EVER
he has all the posters nd these glass frames wid like cds and all these signatures!
nd omg! he even has signed pictures of like avril, sum41, greenday, the used, and EVEN HILARY DUFF
(which he keeps next to his BED)
and then after we watched the Exerciost (the beginning)
we didnt really watch it... we were talking the whole time =P
first he didnt wanna sit beside me cus i have cooties =(
but i got the cootie shot (circle, circle, dot, dot, now i got my cootie shot!)
and yah... dats all im gonna say about christians house =P
(damn christian... makes feel tingly inside haha)
then christian stayed wif me while me ola and HASSAN waited for rachel!
hehe hes soo nice to me =) i <3 u christian.
at the party...
darcy is an amazing screamer/ singer
i wouldnt be surprised if he became famous
and then the other band was RELLY good too!
nd dis morning i found out that the other band's guitarist lives on my street=O
4225 Trellis cresent =)
i have a new friend to hang out wid (srry jacob!)
and i also met some guys named jeff (ryan m's drummer)
and luke (goes to clarkson and comes to south common sumtimes)
also.. at a point.. all the lights were off.. nd SOMEONE (hassan)
grabbed my boob... but it was more like A PINCH!
hahahaha but luke looked soo guilty =P
oh yah nd brett was there.. doing wut he does best... POSING!
dat american eagle future model!
all the chicks <3ed him... he was like the studmuffin at the party =O
also.. i got to take off rachels bra strap haha
nd i think taylor still has the bra strap!
when we were driving home..
hassan was sitting in the back wif me =)
we were acting like brother nd sister
dat bastard slapped me across the face like 10 TIMES!
nd i found out dat his ass is ticklish =P hehe.
i know ur weakness HASSAN!
im gonna go now nd ... watch...
WILD WILD WEST!
hahaha
i <333333 u (whoever loves me back)

Current Mood: geeky

Current Music: blue and yellow- the used

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Mar. 6th, 2005

12:58 am - choclate chip cookies

wow i havent wrote in this thing forever
omg the taste of chaos was amazing<3
i love quinn from the used
he makes me happy in more than one way
i still cant believe i won tickets to that show
and im glad i took betty
you should of seen the smile on her face
i havent seen her THAT happy for sooo long
and she was soo cute
she was singing to like EVRY song
yesterday i went to the complex
and saw... christian<3
hehe i like him soo much *blushes*
i made a complete fool of myself though
dammit. he prob thinks im a freak now
then me paula + ola were phoning random ppls
i phoned anthony, brownie (jacob's ex), and more
seifert called me... i was soo surprised he even remembered me.
also today i was watching the wedding singer
i <3 the ending when robbie sings his song to julia
if a guy wrote me a song.. oh boy... id b in tears from JOY
well neways at the complex..
me ola jess april ariel + ashley went to mcdonalds
evry1 had fries but me... iunno i just dont like fries
then after we hung out wif chris ford
hes sooo cute!! nd hes soo tall!!! hes my friendly giant.
but his personality didnt change... AT ALL
hes still the same old crazy kid that i used to love<3
nd then we froze our lil bum bums outside so we went to ashs
nd after jess april + ariel left we watched napoleon dynamite
omg. u should of seen chris!!
he was soo into it!! he like knew every single word!!! haha
its his life.
nd also im technically invited to dis party on friday at some guys house named alex.
then after me ola nd chris had to leave cus it was already 12
nd i gave chris a BIG hug!!!! nd then i got smushed in the middle by him + ola.
hehehe im soo called we saw chris. i acctually missed him.
nd now im on msn... hoping dat maybe... just maybe i can talk to chrisitan
cus i missed him nd im relly hyper nd awake from all the yummy cookies.
i relly like christian.. well at least i think i do.
we like all the same things (cheese, the used, olives, we both hav a motorola flip phone)
i also <3333 talking to him.
but whenever its in person... i always make a fool of myself.
problem is. i dont think it will EVER work out btw us
either dat or im must a pessimist (which i prob am)
its just dat he likes this gurl nd she likes him
so technically im the third wheel.
oh well.. at least he likes me.
hes so cute:) he sent me a txt msg wid 2 birdies kissing nd one birdie winking
also.. i h8 it when ppls say shit about ppls behind theyre back
first of all its stupid
second of all nobody is perfect
evry1 expects evry1 to be perfect. when theyre not.
*ugh* its just that sum1 that i thought was my friend
turned out to say shit bout me.
how nice of her.
well.. i hav sumthing to say bout her
shes A MEANIE!
end of story.
im gonna go now. christians on<3
<3333333333
p.s. hassan. i missed u 2day.

Current Mood: loved

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Dec. 28th, 2004

Dec. 21st, 2004

09:30 pm - some say

hey journal!
(nd brooke!) 2day was soo awesome!! I woke up early (just 4 u jacob!!) i went to jacobs house at like 12 and me nd him were playing the guitar hahaha a couple of weeks ago i found out i hav a guitar:S:S but apparently ola had it this whole time so i never relly got to play it nd jacob told me dat my guitar is sooo out of tuned nd that i should get new strings. dammit:(. i need to get new strings 2morrow dammit, i wanted to sleep in:(. so yah after me nd jacob played (i learned "seven nation army" even though its the easiest song EVER)nd ola nd paula came over!! yay!! nd we were just hangin out nd then KAROL came!! we love our karol!! ur the koolest!! nd then me, jacob, nd paula went outside (yes were crazy) nd we were sliding on the deck:P nd jacob kept pushin me down!! nd i couldnt get up:( no fair:( my ass like froze (wut am i sayin i dont even hav an ass) okie my so-called "ass" froze... not good:( nd then we all left at like 4ish. so paula went shopping, karol BIKED (yes BIKED) home, nd ola came over to my place. we made fries again:) they were sooo BURNED nd OILY... EWWW i felt soo oily after!!! nd then after we went on msn nd put on a show wid my web cam (hahaha! hassan nd devin! u know u liked it!)nd then me nd ola watched mean gurls (i love dat movie).. its soo REALISTIC... well sorta.. in a strange way it is (well to me) nd then after ola had to leave:( nd i think she got in trouble poor Ebola:( (i love u) oh yah 2day i tried curling olas hair:P it was crazy!! first i burned her (im so srry) then her curls came out messed up (i never said i was good at it!!), but we had tons of fun:P u gotta love dat beautiful chick!! well dats all i hav to say (write) for 2day:) thanks for wasting ur time reading this:)
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Current Mood: weird

Current Music: Wonderwall by Oasis

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Dec. 7th, 2004

Dec. 5th, 2004

06:54 pm - SINCE U BEEN GONE

hell diary.. haha dats soo gay ill jsut call it... ernie.. the talkin journal... haha dats even gayer!!! but dats okay... today was a lasy day... but i had to do hmwk so i didnt have any time to be lasy:( dat sucks!!! i watched a cinderella story again i love that movie!! okie fine.. hilary duff is a lil pretty, just a lil, no more haha... i wish my life was more like that movie even though sumtimes it feels like it (except for the whole gettin prince charming part)like.. me nd hilary both hav the same name.. samantha.. eww (i hate dat name) we both have a crush on a popular hott guy (but she gets him of course) nd our two guys have a strange resemblance to each other (like looks nd personality which is relly hott!!!) nd we both get picked on by ppl at our skool (damn ppl hu think they own the skool) nd we both have a crappy life (but her life gets better of course)like really all i really want is 3 things... no.. not to b the most popular gurl ever nd no not to b pretty... but i wanna a boyfriend (of course) this time a decent one!! sum1 whos nice, caring, i can jk around wid, sum1 hus attractive nd just sum1 hu i can spend alot of time wid nd never get bored of them!! nd second of all.. i want self esteem.. i relly think i hav low self esteem... nd i jsut wanna look in the mirror one day nd be happy wid who i relly am!! most ppl think dats easy but its relly not (esepcially for me) ive done soo many stupid things so wen i look back i think of how stupid i was being which makes me feel more low of myself!! jacob said dat by getting a boyfriend i can get more self esteem b/c then ill feel like sum1 else cares bout me alot nd i do agree wid dat a bit but i also wanna a boyfriend b/c i just wanna be wid sum1 hu i care most about nd jsut hav a blast nd... do things dat boyfriends nd girlfriends do!! SO WHEREVER U R PRINCE CHARMING!! ILL B WAITING:( like i have been for 4 months now...
love ur hopeless romantic
p.s. congrats jake on gettin the gurl of ur dreams lol:P im soo happy for yu!!!

Current Mood: lonely

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Dec. 4th, 2004

06:57 pm - TO DEVIN!!!

see devo u r important to me! u lil idiot! im even writing a journal thingy for yu!! okie well yah i dont i ever got a chance to say thanks to u nd ryan for helping me wid my problems lol i dont know where i'd be still widout you guys so you guys rock!!! im really tired!! nd devin i hope u find the write boyfriend:D i mean girlfriend some day!! shes gonna be soo lucky to have you!! nd ur a great guy friend pls never change!! haha i want my original devo!!! the gangster/ sk8ter one:D hehehe sk8ters rule nd so do rockerS!! oh yah!!!! hahah im hyper!! no im not:( not yet;) lol we should do sumthin next weekend!! complex hahaha!! bring evry1 nd well have a party nd get drunk lol oh yah!!! o i 4got how to do my ollie:( ah crap im skrewed... i wish i could sk8board... o well wen i grow up ill become a surfer:) lol ill show yu!!!! hahha!! i do hav balance.. i swear:$ lol well i have to go ola nd paula r coming over!! ttyl(L)(L)(L)

Current Mood: excited

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03:37 pm - SO HERE I AM!

heyyy evry1 who cares!!
isnt the used amazing!! i cant get enough of the tast of ink!!! its such a great song lol:P its raining:( nd i feel lonely!!! fuck dis shit!!! devin if u read dis the reason y i spazzed out at u was b/c honestly... sumtimes u act like ur ALL dat... when ur not.. so stop acting soo cocky nd be urself for once!! nd i know dats not the real you! cus ur better than dat! u know it nd i do too! nd akins stop doing fuckin drugs! if u really care bout trini then you'll stop!!! cus u know dat trini hates it... nd u know dat she wants to hurt herself wenever u do it... nd u still do it neways!!! if u really like her like u told me... then u'd stop for once!! just 4 her!!! (i got ur back trini... no im not a security guard friggin bitch). 2day is supposbly my lucky day for love.. hahaha.. isnt dat funny? me nd love dont mix 2gether!!! its a proven fact!! i can hook ppl up but i cant seem to find the right person for myself nd wenever i do it gets fucked up (hey ryan hastings!!!) lol shh i just HAD to put that!!! nd i like sumone!!! but ah crap:(... iunno i dont wanna be alone nemore!!!*rolls eyes* hahahaha *sigh* if only he knew lmao.. no wait!! i dont want him to know!!! then he wont know:D dats my plan dont worry ola i know wut im doing.. honestly i dont have a fuckin clue wut im doing but ill jsut go wid the flow!!! nd see wut happens!!!
ill be back for more mother fuckers (trini)

Current Mood: okay

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Dec. 3rd, 2004

05:06 pm - hehehe i feel special

heyy brooke!! i hope u read this!!
ahh im soo tired!! i hate skool!!! its gay!! THERE ARE SOO MANY THINGS IVE BEEN WAITING TO SAY FOR AWHILE FOR EXAMPLe.... RYAN HAS NO BALLS! (not ryan martin) hes kool!!!!!!! im soo gonna get beaten up for dis but dats okay!!!ehh also ..... i wanna go to a different skool (lorne park) i hate loyola.. its gayy!!!also i wanna add dat brooke is my hero!!! also i have a crush on someone.. yes ... like always... shh but dats okay.. dis one is special:D oh yah skimmy nd rosemary r going out! finally!! God dammit skimmy!! took u awhile!!! lol!! haha jks u know i love u!!! .... hahaha also me nd trini r gonna join the weight club in loyola (haha sucker anthony!!!) me nd trini r gonna see u there!!! me nd trini r gonna get abs:D dats our goal b4 june!! lets see if we can do it:D of course we can!!! well im gonna go to the complex!!! i wanna c my ola.. nd paula.. nd ash... nd jess!!!! nd... haha any1 else hu is there!! (my loverboy) shh dont tell any1 ah crap nvm
luv yah brooke!!(L)(L)(L)

Current Mood: crazy

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